Wednesday, 19 March 2014

Day 63

I heard mum’s voice tonight for 20 minutes.  I had to cut the phonecall short, because of Irene wishing me not to be on the phone for long anymore.  She keeps mentioning that I’m on for quite a long time, and now I’m starting to learn.  Yes, I’m on the phone, but it’s mainly because mum hasn’t been readily available like every other time that I’ve wished for her around.  Quite a strain, but it’s given me a small lesson.  Sometimes I need to rely on myself.

I’ve been watching TV.  A lot of television.  Started watching a show that I’m really intrigued by… It’s called “My five wives”.  It’s about polygamy.  I’ve learned some things from the show, although I’ve seen one episode.  Basic synopsis:  One guy, Brady has married five wives and had about 25 children.  Good for him, seriously, although it’s a major strain on all their budgets.  I can understand why someone would want to be in this type of relationship, but to have that many children in today’s society would be a major strain.  They’ve made it, with the longest wife of 21yr marriage.  The interesting part is that the wives don’t really talk much.  The other show I’ve been watching is “Days of our lives”.  A draining soap, but all in all – it’s kinda funny.  It’s helping me with my confidence and not splatting my words about so much.  I am strangely thankful for that.

Tv has made me want to move into a new home, settle down, and have children.  Crap.

I’m having up and down days, emotionally.  Saturday was a real downer, as I just sat inside and did absolutely nothing all day.  I did enjoy reading a book that was given to me, that I have now finished.  Although the days seem to change frequently, so do everyone’s thoughts and emotions.  The days don’t blend in together, although it appears each has a fresh start.  I’m happy for that, but I have lost track of time sometimes.  This hasn’t happened by choice, but what has happened is something I can’t tell you, because I don’t know myself just yet.  Wait and see.

I’ve managed to set up my itunes, so everything is set up almost perfectly, so yay! 

I can’t wait until I’m back in PG.  To live in a place with room-mates and have fun with friends, go out for a drink, work hard for minimum wage, and start school in September?  It sounds like the perfect life again; something similar that I had when I was living in Calgary.  I’ll appreciate it more this time.


I think I could see myself living here if I learned how to drive.  Then nothing would be problematic.  I don’t get out enough…

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